Today was another shining example of the philosophy I’m testing out. In layman’s terms, it’s go with the flow. (More on this later)
The sun was too bright through the slider this morning, the Capricorn moon dragging me down. Yesterday’s full moon still pulled at me with its energies and I felt my energy slump. It was all I could do to get out of bed.
To counter, I made myself go for a run with the dog. The exercise sucked, but the wind was strong and sweet. It reminded me of spring in Boston. I wasn’t a runner when I lived there.
While running, I spoke to myself. It’s OK. We have this under control. Just do one thing at a time. I may have even asked God for some help. Good thing I did, because the rest of my day fell right into place.
- Moved tea date to later in the afternoon to create more time for work
- Work on work, feel unsure
- Have call with boss / coworker. Reevaluate work and continue on
- Have dinner plans magically cancel. Relief about gaining more time at home
- Say aloud, “I’m being a perfectionist and they don’t care this much at all”. Keep moving along with what I need to do, and don’t get bogged down by sinking feeling of despair.
- Get to tea break and enjoy being outside, the sun, the tea and KT, who is probably moving out of LA soon, but it’s good to see her when I can.
- Leave tea date with what I think is plenty of time to make my haircut appt
- Traffic is slow, so I return phone calls
- One work friend suggests I call the salon and explain I’ll be late
- After 40min in the car and still not out of West LA, I call
- They promptly reschedule me just as I turn around and pass the on-ramp to get back on the freeway
- I return home energized
- I use said energy to work on more work, return work phone calls and draft my wedding ceremony
- H cooks dinner, freeing up more of my time
- We eat dinner and watch TV. He heads to the store for work, I blog.
Maybe it doesn’t translate as well, but really, all of these twists and turns in my day made everything fall right into place perfectly. It was effortless. I mean, I’m tired and look forward to bed, but I trusted each alteration to my day’s plan and it kept getting better and better.
And the real bonus is, I feel awesome despite the tiredness and constant changes. Days like the above would’ve left me in hysterics even 9 months ago. Now, days like this make me proud. I adapt, I ask for help and I trust.